It's been a while.

I need to get back in the habit of using this, because my stress level is through the roof and I need a way to vent and this is such a good way to do it.

I found out today I have to do an oral presentation in my History of Rock n Roll class next thursday. I'm already hyperventilating and having a panic attack about it even though I'd only be talking for up to 3 minutes. I just absolutely hate talking in front of people, it scares me so much! :( She's drawing names to present Thursday and then the following Tuesday and I really hope I get picked on Thursday so I can just get it over with!

What else is new? Absolutely nothing. I've been feeling so alone these days. All I do is go to school, come home, see my niece and then repeat every day. The days I'm not at school I'm working so my social life is pretty nonexistent at the moment. I just really wish I had a boyfriend, especially with the holidays now. I just wish I had someone you know? I shouldn't complain because I am happy with life and everything. I'm blessed to have the family I do, my brother and sister in law moving back to MN, and my sister and brother in law and niece living down the street for me to see whenever I want. I'm happy to have a nice house and everything, but I still feel like there's something missing- love. I've never been in love, not even close. I ache to feel it so much. I want to know what its like to love someone who loves me back and to have that kind of relationship. Maybe someday. I keep thinking that it just hasn't happened yet because no guy has ever been good enough so my dad hasn't put the right one in my life yet. Seeing things that way makes it a little easier for me, but I'm anxious to fall in love and to feel that kind of happiness.

Maybe someday.

xoxAnnie