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Saturday, May 29, 2010

tossing and turning

I know I just posted my first entry not that long ago, but I am just SO excited about blogging. It's going to be such a great stress reliever for sure now that I've got a way to just get everything out.

I've been tossing and turning the past few nights and I have a feeling this is where my panic attack originated from. I hope I'm making the right decision and going to Century. I haven't gotten into the Radiology Tech program yet since I haven't finished the prerequisites. What if I don't get accepted into it? Then what do I do? That's my biggest fear. What if I don't get accepted into that program?

I know everything happens for a reason. I am a firm believer and it still scares the shit out of me that the path I've chosen isn't set in stone. I like knowing that things are for sure going to work out, I know life hardly works that way, but just once I wish I could roll with the punches. I see myself as a pretty easy going girl- but with decisions as big as this, it's hard to just sit back and watch what will happen. As soon as I for sure get accepted into the program I can breathe a sigh of relief, until then I'm going to be a nervous wreck working my ass off for this. I want this so bad it scares me that I might not get into it. I have faith in myself, however, that the decisions I make I cannot look back and regret or rethink- because I clearly made them for a reason, that it'll make me happy.

On a lighter note-
I saw Joe today! YAY! Still no homer for him at Target Field but damn he looked so good! :] I had such a blast at the game, there would have been one exception to make that game perfect- but I will not go into detail about that just yet.

Going to say my bedtime prayers and then relax!
xoxo

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